Realistic Resolution 2020

We all went through some shits last 2019.

Same with me too. Sometimes the thing we went through is something we could not put it into words either in conversation or writing.

Well, what I can see is that maybe we all are too hard on ourselves before. We put so much 'high expectation' to ourselves that when we did not achieve it, we start blaming. When we looked at our friends' massive success on Instagram, we began to question our worth. Well, that is what I reflect on myself. I believe there is someone who might read this has the same things going on to them.

Therefore this 2020, I decided to calm down.

Calm down in giving me the hardest time for all the things that happened. I am 25 this year, and I know this is the year I'll be looking so many things that I'll think I won't get it this year.

But I am learning to take it slowly but show progress. I will not compare my achievement with someone else or compare THEIR success with mine. Thinking back all the blessings that I had before, I am far more than grateful. I love the quote I saw on Twitter saying that.

Remember the dua or the thins we hoped before, but we get it now?

Well, this opened my eyes and heart. There are things that I did not get but for sure that there are a lot of things I got too. I just refused to see.

Therefore this 2020, instead of making huge goals which are also useful to boost up ourselves but probably we need to look ourselves too. We can dream but don't make it into a nightmare.

If it is tight, then stop and figure other things out. ALWAYS has another plan.

So I am making 2020 resolutions are more realistic. I list it out on my journal. Things that I know if I wanna change I need to change my habit first.

So here 2020, Happy New Year!

Extra-ordinary You ( K Drama)

Just finished watching this drama. The song still there in my mind. I really love the OST!! 

The drama is not that heavy. About school life, a little bit slice of life from ancient times and also comics. I used to think that this drama is just another cliche high school romance but IT IS NOT.

I love the plot. It is not boring and we want to wait until the next episode about what had happened. A little brief about this drama. It is about how the characters on a comic book realised that they are in a comic world where they need to follow what the writers draw them although they don't like the story of the comic. The conflict happened when the writers decided their life and love but they fall in love with another person that is not on their storyline. It is really great. I love how creative and twisted it can be.

I, myself would not imagine that a person can make a great story about the comic world. Kudos to the scriptwriter especially. Looking forward to another drama from both protagonists from this drama because they are so good!

Family Will ALWAYS Be There

Financial problems can be so stressful. Problems come without inviting. Stress is attacking and "happy" is long gone.

When we are in the most desperate and lowest. The person that always there is our family. Everyone has their own shit going own, same with ourselves, but when we look back the person that stays beside us is our family.

Let us ask ourselves, "How many times we always choose friends before family?" I used to think that friends are "fun" and "freedom". How much I am so wrong now. I still remembered my mom used to tell me that I maybe think that friends are everything now, but one day I will realise that family is everything.

Some people might say that not everyone has a kind and loving family. There are toxic family too. When I read other people story about how toxic their parents or siblings, I cannot stop my tears because I am forever grateful to be blessed by a really great family.

Friends will come and go. In this life, there are many phases. I used to be a school kid going to university students and now adulthood. Friends change and will not be able to be there all the time. But the family that Allah has given to us since the beginning of our existence will always always be there for us.

This has opened my eyes and hopes that can help open other people eyes to always make our family a priority. Family with great Islam background is indeed a blessing. I will not trade that with anything.

I will make dua every day to Allah to always protect them, give them a long-lasting age and healthy life. I love my family.

I will cherish my family first until I have my own family. I will be there for them first before anyone else.